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I am far from perfect. I fear a lot of things; most realistic, yet all irrational because the only thing I should truly fear is God. I find myself fearing the little things and being afraid of God. I fall every day: I have cursed, I have judged, I have neglected to do God's Will, I have put my foot in my mouth countless times and I have given up. It is obvious that I cannot live life on my own. It is utterly impossible. I am dependent. I am needy. I am selfish. I am sinful. I am human.. However, the most important thing about me; I am forgiven.


Be an owl.

Okay, so; wow. That is all I have to say. Actually, no.. I could say a lot of things and it still wouldn't even cover what I feel right now. I could say joyful, excited, pumped, thankful, loved, awed, humbled, convicted, ect. And I will.. but I also want to say that tonight when Pastor Brian was preaching, he said that P. Mark said something that he completely agrees with. And actually, I agree with them because it has been on my heart a lot lately too.

"This youth group was going to do something really amazing".

Yeah... was. That makes me sad. Like really, really, really sad. I want to do something about it. I don't know what though, other than to trust God. But so badly I want to go back "all in". Do a hard thing. Step up to the plate. Be the generation with a selfless faith. Worship more fully. Sing more passionately. Raise my voice like thunder. Dance like David danced. Walk with my eye on the prize. Live like I am dying. Do what Jesus would do. Love more deeply. Live more Christlike...

I could say more, but I think you got the point on that subject.

What also touched me tonight was this song that Mike sang by Hillsong.

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes


I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing (because I want to raise my voice for Him but we need to join together to make a difference.)

Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

(Yeah, we definitely need to walk a little more selfless. We need to rise up to be what we are called for. Our calling is to follow Jesus in everything.)

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

(Enough said. God is doing something. We need to be on our knees.)

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours (This one is just so intimate and amazing. Yeah.)
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to

[Chorus x2]

Hosanna in the highest

So, yes, this is going to be my song for the week. But on a last note, my God is amazing and I am just awed that He chose me; before I was even born; to know Him. To love Him. To do His will. For His glory. To make a difference. To do what Jesus did and minister to others in anything and everything I do. He loves me.
Yeah.. I'm definitely going to be praying that God will use me to help bring back the amazing youth group God called us to be, for His Glory. But over all, even before God answers my prayers, I'm going to be an owl and look only in front of myself...(Proverbs 4:25) what about you?


1 comment:

  1. hey girl tomorrow is gonna be awesome ;] just sharing