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I am far from perfect. I fear a lot of things; most realistic, yet all irrational because the only thing I should truly fear is God. I find myself fearing the little things and being afraid of God. I fall every day: I have cursed, I have judged, I have neglected to do God's Will, I have put my foot in my mouth countless times and I have given up. It is obvious that I cannot live life on my own. It is utterly impossible. I am dependent. I am needy. I am selfish. I am sinful. I am human.. However, the most important thing about me; I am forgiven.



Haggai 1: 8-11
"Thus says the LORD of hosts, “Consider your ways! “Go up to the mountains, bring wood and rebuild the temple, that I may be pleased with it and be glorified,” says the LORD. “You look for much, but behold, it comes to little; when you bring it home, I blow it away. Why?” declares the LORD of hosts, “Because of My house which lies desolate, while each of you runs to his own house. “Therefore, because of you the sky has withheld its dew and the earth has withheld its produce. “I called for a drought on the land, on the mountains, on the grain, on the new wine, on the oil, on what the ground produces, on men, on cattle, and on all the labor of your hands.” 

Psalms 51:10 
"Make a clean heart in me, O God; give me a right spirit again."

This is my prayer for today.

To Be loved enough to be changed sounds odd. But when He is fixing us up to be holy.. who cares we are changing?! I am His child. Creating. Loved one. Temple. Shouldn't I want to be cleaned for Him? Isn't it worth it to be chiseled. New. Whole. Alive. Yes, it is good. God renew my spirit, make it holy again for you. Amen.




take a step

nothing changes unless we take a step towards change

and I think God wants you to take a step

that is terrifying you

It'll be revealed today

and you're not going to see it right away

but thats what you gotta do. "

Even though I have no idea what I will not see right away. I trying to accept, trust, love, wait, praise that God is still God. I sort of feel like Peter. When God said you will deny me 3 times before the rooster crows. I feel like I'm trying to not "miss" what God wants me to do. Trying to follow God before the rooster crows. So I'm praying. For strength. For peace. For patience. For clarity. For Him. 

Then.. I have to wait, walk, and trust. Blindly.